Nov 16, 2006

累了

心好累。因为没有目标的活着,行尸走肉的过日子。物质上是满足了,但灵魂还是空荡荡的。真的很怕改变。变得自己都不认得自己了。陌生的我。以前的那个我,不理会别人的目光,不在意别人的褒贬,我行我素。现在的我,抛下了自己,追上了媚俗。突然间想一个人拿起背包,去一个陌生的地方,静静的,平凡的,去寻找一种遗失了的感觉。但是这只是在电影里才会发生的。美化了的镜头,轻易触动人心的音乐,有共鸣的情节,理想的世界。很想在冷静和热情之间找到一个平衡点。愈快乐,愈失落......

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

ya i think v yearn for freedom so much. wan to break free from our routine, our everyday life. my bf told me that i too tau yap into the movies until i hope to b like the character haha. but to think again, in real life, there's no dramatic situation n background music for even the moz meaningful scene. mayb w/o those, v din realise that v r already living it. but i stil can't convince myself n hey, backpacking is wat v alwiz hiong mong rite? may this come true 1 day.

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since its wat we always hiong mong...which mean i may never come true...really hope dat at the end of de day...as we look back,we wont have too many regrets...ai...too many thing and too many ppls we have to care bout their feeling...i almost forgot what i really want the most in life...yesterday online searched 4 the memorable quotes from the movie "fight club"-if u wake up in different time or different place,could u wake up as a different person?hehe...i hope so lol...hah